I've owned the above Old Navy white jeans since 1997. A whooping 17 years. And the last time I fit into them was a whooping 17 years ago. I've kept these jeans because I like how they fit and hoped to wear them again after losing weight. Well that did not happen. I've steadily gained weight. A total of 70lbs over 17 years. Which is 4lbs per year. I currently wear a size 20 and weigh 214lbs. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed to show how much I weigh. I've enjoyed every carb, protein, junk food, and sweets that passed these lips. Gaining weight has not lowered my self esteem or self worth. It hasn't turned me into a frumpy fuck. My family & friends love my style and most importantly me. My husband has never made me feel anything but sexy & beautiful. It has not prevented me from traveling and going on many excursions. However I can't ignore the pounds and the calendar. I'm getting older and my metabolism is shot to hell. If I continue on this path I will wake up 17 years from now 70+lbs heavier. Can't let that happen. Every few months I start to eat better and exercise but never stick it out. As I've stated before, once something becomes hard or boring I quit. Losing weight is both boring and hard. So I quit. Part of my 2014 resolutions is to stop quitting. Get out of my comfort zone and being fat has been part of my comfort zone for way to long. Now don't get me wrong, I have no desire to be skinny. My goal is to fit into a size 12 comfortably. I don't know what magical number that is on the scale. I do know that my short term goal is to fit into my white jeans, which are a size 14. This will be my "Orange Laces to White Pants" challenge. My challenge begins Tuesday February 18. One day at a time is a motto I try to live by. Therefore I will be setting 24 hour goals. Stay tuned for my weight loss plan and updates.
I must go now to deal with the mocking voice in my head shouting "Will this time be any different? Probably not.".
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